Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Random Thoughts Again

I'm now a stay at home mom and I love being here with my little girl.   Honestly, best decision I've made hands down.   

Some days I wonder where I fit in.... I mean I had LOTS of friends at work and I still keep in touch with some - it isn't the same though and I suppose it never will be.   It is just different when you don't talk every day and/or see them.  It is also hard when you've had a child later in life - when you didn't have kids and all your friends did - it was hard to join the conversations because they were all about raising new little ones.   When you have a kid, theirs are already lightyears ahead.

And then there are groups you try to join - and when they are already established, it is hard to break the barrier and fit in.   Not that they are't lovely nice people, but that they have already share some common bond.   

I'm sure once my little one isn't so little anymore, I'll meet her friends and their parents and form some new bonds and friendships but for now, she and I will be our own little group and we both fit in really well!  

1 comment:

essjay said...

I understand your post so much and I don't even have a little girl! It is hard to feel on the outside of a group and hard to assimilate into groups. At least you are enjoying being a stay at home mom - such a wonderful gift to be able to do that!